Jan. 9th

its 7:21 and I'm already fucked over for the day .

i really can see why me and my mom arent meant to live together .

shes a b i t c h .

shes not a mother at all .

and i never thought of her as one .

always like a big sister .

my grandma is my true mother <3



like why the fuck is she gonna tell me my step dad is gonna take me to work, and ill have to be early for school . but then be like the next morning you missed the bus when i told you to ride the bus cuz he couldnt take you !

what the fuckkkkkkkkkk ???!!!!



two faced bitch .



dont tell my grandma that i stayed up late on the phone and computer (true.) but that wasthe reason . (false.) becuase the night before i fell asleep at 330 cuz of the neighbors and still got up for school, in november went to the n.e.r.d. concert and STILL got up .

she needs to stop yelling, and calling me worthless&trash.. cuz that damages a girl's self-eestem .

2 in morning .

its 2 am,
i n s o m n i a is crazy, man .
can't sleep and i have to be up in less than 4 hours, so i know someone is gonna be a grouch for real for real.
minds racing with thoughts right now.. maybe i should just let them out..

like

everyone is saying o9 on some new shit, but real tlk, aint nothing changing . people are still fake, phony, dealing with shit.. just like o9 .
im waiting for '10 !
maybe then everyone will be on a new grind .
another thing bothering the fuck outta me, is how drama is going about .
im so over alot of things, that people should just drop .
aint no body care about that shit for real for real no more .
why the fuck dont you do the same?
yo; i know im soundin like a bitch right now but im just trying to get my point across .
life goes on, heart keeps pounding, body keeps breathing, brain keeps thinking... why dont you speed up and join the rest of them ?
cuz i got enough on my plate then to worry bout you , sorry .
now that i cleared up that issue,
I wanna say that randomly ..

the world is gonna be over before you know it..
cuz everyone is selfish,
i know i am too .

we, as people, dont give a fuck about anyone else . and thats our downfall .

if you ask alot of people whats going on in our world, half of them are gonna say they dont know cuz their to busy wasting their time chasing after material goods . and thats when the world went wrong .

when the people created paper .
money .
people die, kill, and do anything just for paper . sad isnt it ?
imagine if we never had money...
we would be living like the song "imagine" by John lennon .
beautifully .

i aint saying humans destroyed our world . i'm saying greed did .

Jan. 5th

ha, i missed the first day of going back to school from winter break, and just sat here all day doing absoulty nothing ! but so far this new year i think my quest to resolve my resolution for 2009 is going great; i most def said i was going to cut off people[which i am doing as of right now] and grow up some more . and since its the 5th and i already knocked my resolution down, then I just have to move on to bigger and better things . I'm no longer gonna hold my tongue and take shit from people . I'm done with that. So don't take as 'keyona's being mean and blah blah" no hun, I'm just gonna be more real and telling you straight up. If thats the only way I'm gonna be happy and get more respect then best believe thats what I'm doing . I don't need to tell my friends everything, or trust anyone. I don't have too.. and thats what I just need to learn .